This came into my e-mail today and i must say that my feelings were rather mixed. Just after i have the resignation of fate to attend SIM, this has to come into my e-mail, tempting me to head over to Sydney for my degree. I told my parents immediately, and they asked me to check the cost and everything.
Its friggin expensive, at least for my family.
I'm not from a rich family, and i have to admit that my entire polytechnic school fees were able to be handled smoothly without any problems would be thanks to the HYC-PSA scholarship awarded to me during my second semester of year 1 in Ngee Ann. It's nothing much, but having my school fees cleared and receiving an allowance of $300 each month from the organization helped me and my family so much when it comes to the money part. I know there are tons of rich people out there, or maybe people who are probably better than average who can go and study in whichever part of the world they want because their parents are able to afford it. To be honest, i have always been a teeny weeny proud to be the one handling my own school fees instead of having my parents to fork it out. No doubt, i would also be jealous of the people around me who have the means to travel with their parents' money.
Alrights, so i think i would have to give it a miss for this time round. Its approximately around $300,000k for everything for the whole of 3years, and yes, my family just can't fork out that kind of money. its depressing because i have always think of UNSW as a good business school, and i would like to continue in studying business. It's just the wrong time i guess.
Either way, there are things to be joyful about not going because for one, my boyfriend seems to be a little more elated than he should be when i told him i'm not/can't go.
But i'm happy that i would be there for him during his NS time because as much as he needs me, i need him a lot as well.
& my mum was really afraid of me living in Sydney for good should i study there (all the examples around her, friends and family members), so yeah. Bank loans, scholarship and financial aids - not that we did not consider these options, but putting a burden on my entire family just for my degree is just absolutely selfish for me to even think about it.
On a side note, the scholarship offered by the university is about $4-6k per annum, and has only 1 to 2 scholarships available. If you are talking about SG ones, looking at my results i dun really think its possible. Financial aids aren't avl for international students, and bank loans.. what would we use as a guarantee?
Either or, thank you UNSW for the offer, and letting me know that in life, its not always bleak. Just because none of the three local universities want me as their student, it didn't meant that i am really as useless as i think myself to be these few months. So thank you.